Under the Whale Archive

  • One of my first official acts as a newly minted 40-year-old was to help my mother pronounce my stepfather dead after a prolonged and terrible brain illness. It was dawn […]

    Tract for the Day of the Dead

    One of my first official acts as a newly minted 40-year-old was to help my mother pronounce my stepfather dead after a prolonged and terrible brain illness. It was dawn […]

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  • At the beginning of the year, I made the aspiration to read fewer Buddhist and self-help books. I bought and started Just Kids by Patti Smith, but I didn’t get […]

    Hope & death & Patti Smith

    At the beginning of the year, I made the aspiration to read fewer Buddhist and self-help books. I bought and started Just Kids by Patti Smith, but I didn’t get […]

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  • The news was bad for dogs last week. Apparently, dragons hate them, so the new Chinese year is predicted to be a rough one for people like myself, born in […]

    I am dead people

    The news was bad for dogs last week. Apparently, dragons hate them, so the new Chinese year is predicted to be a rough one for people like myself, born in […]

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  • I don’t sleep so well. Every other night, I find myself awake at odd hours to warm a mug of milk, stretch my hips or play racquetball with difficult thoughts […]

    Late

    I don’t sleep so well. Every other night, I find myself awake at odd hours to warm a mug of milk, stretch my hips or play racquetball with difficult thoughts […]

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  • A dragonfly hovered strangely at eye-level outside my car window in August. I thought it must mean that my friend Joan was dead. I was stopped at a red light. […]

    Saturday night dragonfly

    A dragonfly hovered strangely at eye-level outside my car window in August. I thought it must mean that my friend Joan was dead. I was stopped at a red light. […]

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  • I just returned from a beautiful memorial service in Loveland, Ohio, for my dear friend and colleague, Linda Sanders-Wells. Everyone there was invited to share their experiences of her. This […]

    For Linda

    I just returned from a beautiful memorial service in Loveland, Ohio, for my dear friend and colleague, Linda Sanders-Wells. Everyone there was invited to share their experiences of her. This […]

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  • So I took the better part of a year to complete the 12 Steps (for codependents). I thought finishing them would crack my life wide open. There were days when […]

    Impermanent impermanence

    So I took the better part of a year to complete the 12 Steps (for codependents). I thought finishing them would crack my life wide open. There were days when […]

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  • I have become an aficionado of science documentaries; a connoisseur of Cosmos, a knower of Nova and a devotee of the Discovery Channel. Because space remains the iron core of […]

    Constructing immortality

    I have become an aficionado of science documentaries; a connoisseur of Cosmos, a knower of Nova and a devotee of the Discovery Channel. Because space remains the iron core of […]

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  • Last February, I was nervous about what the Year of the Tiger might have in store for me. Truthfully, I could not have imagined the half of it. Tigers are […]

    Rabbit, Rabbit, Year of the Rabbit

    Last February, I was nervous about what the Year of the Tiger might have in store for me. Truthfully, I could not have imagined the half of it. Tigers are […]

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  • I was all set to do laundry on New Year’s Day. The baskets were loaded, the darks picked clean of stray white socks. Then I happened upon the superstition that […]

    Washing away

    I was all set to do laundry on New Year’s Day. The baskets were loaded, the darks picked clean of stray white socks. Then I happened upon the superstition that […]

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